Don't Forget.

These dreams which haunt me; there was I chasing some female entity who resembled Rihana herself; she wanted to escape from me or somewhere else n I was after her; in one moment she has jumped from a very high roof and this has made me reconsider my intentions; but the next moment it was a lucid dream to take over my actions; I thought, it's just a dream and it might be just as well fun to simply jump n experience; so I did; I can still remember the overwhelming feeling of freedom while I was falling down from the height; it felt great; was this a kind of a suicide attempt? it certainly did not feel like it upon the decision making process nor when coming close to the ground; I did not feel anything when it was time to meet the floor level; I simply started to loose speed when that came in proximity. I can also recall that I actually had time to wonder what to choose, i.e., what way of landing to choose; there are two which are known to me: either pound in a bright white light and immediately enter another dream sequence or loose the momentum and forget about the present event;;;then there were some interluding episodes, featuring you being stoned; but what moved me most was the one in which my mother appeared; we were in a room-like place and before I realized we were suddenly close to each other, hugging. as she told me some info about my father in a way far too straightforward we were crying and I felt a bond with her like never before; yes, I do remember those things she told me very precisely even acutely I should say. I wish not, I will not share them even here. when I woke up from that nightmare I had involuntary tears in my eyes;;;so I will be translating and revising my MA further; but 'fore that commences I shall treat myself royally with a mango-ish coffee at Sylw's;;;