What has to n will be.

Although it is anything terrible or dramatic, it nonetheless causes enormous layers of stress. Is it worth mentioning here anyway? So awful as it is, this issue should neither be mentioned nor brought up... Still, much as independent and full of motivation I view myself, as often as this matter is brought to daylight it concerns me, deprives [me] of self-confidence, makes feel lost... At least it's nothing what would last indefinitely n it is kind of a situation which one feels so much relieved when it's finally over. One feels like the ruler of the world whn the outcomes equal the most daring expectations.