nwntd, npctd, nntd, htd, dspsd

That was awful, it felt like the former me; bck to the complete basics; so awkward, every moment n maneouvre so stiff, wooden, 'itching', lack of self-confidendce; recallin the strict resolution not to do it again; save it f0r the future; do not try any snowballs. p.s. I have lust for watching a tv series or a movie to the least. end o'p.s. I feel like I was on rehab [Such, a cravin [cos not an appetite it is] for fare I have never struggled with before]; I felt my fingers tingle \; n, yes! thr was some thought undefined, unverbalised [herbalised/r], unscribed n it wuss sth brilliant to the hilt! but recovered as it is frm the faint faint, fleetin feelin left after it is its sole form t'day. like a veil [round it], a cloudy wisp of a smokey mood, of a clever thought. so [strikingly] obvious was it that I could hardly remember it. It's 01.22 n it feels bck to normal activity. Time of administration ca. 22:50~23.