I'm in. All in. Wisely in. As you call it.

More hits in the history than to my own prove blog. Not many more tears than earlier, no, not at all. All I can do now is muse, marvel myself into thoughts about us, throw away all the anger, all the rage and just let it be, let my inner intangible fibres go to you. Ur gon' remember. Couldn't d much about it, couldn't restrain m'self. Am sure ur gon fall in love with it again though. Sometimes I get the feeling, I am stealing your time. On the other hand, it's my acheivements, my passions and versatile skills that I reckon I can do so no matter the robbed lot. I'mm doing best at the varisty for you, my lovely! It was never in my desires to make you sad nor to act shady against you. Reading your blog although these are not your txts I'm trying to grasp the message you wanted to convey. Looking at your pictures. I'm not going to pay attention to anything that surrounds us. I can remember you telling me about one entire night you spent listening to the song. Can I claim it to be ours? Nothing pathetic in it, hope so. The moments, the time spent with you in the past, it was so exceptional, so unusual and I do not heitate to say it, it was unknown to me in that I've never expereienced so much warmth, tenderness and cordiality from a person. I do wish I could, we could come back to that time for the mere sake of feeling it. Let the shiver rule my skin. Yes, and I can still recall one of my dreams I had about you at the time we were not even talkiing with each other. You were so sweet in conquering me! I adored the way you stalked me as well as I fancied your devotion in the so early stage. You were round for me everywhere, everytime I needed somebody. The somebody-turned-you inevitably, for you were such a charming handsome bachelor.You were always there. When I succeeded, when I failed, when I had moments of glory, when I was a misery guts. You were always close watvhing, looking at and after me. I could always rely on you. So beautiful. I don't mean I wish you were like you used to be again, cos what I want to be is us, is you to be with me not auto-destroying yourself, not doing any damage to your feelings and/or your personality, your inner side, cos I do harbour the feeling towards you. I do. I have not and am not intending to waste the time on staring at other people's do's&don'ts. As you said, am gonna grab your hand and walk, walk with you the path till the ned of our lives. I want you to know that I have my sincere interest in you, that I am always round for you, there's nothing like me being uninterested in what's going in your life. I would really like you to know that there's no such thing so as to keep in secret from me. I'm here to listen. BUT. 20th NOvember, I surmise it all started then. Your change I'm not glad of at all. DO try. do, do, do.... There's only a glimpse of the old you. Just like in the picture.