Inner Thoughts Externalized.

That is weird. Kind of weird at least, you know. Perhaps, that is my presupposition, my presumption, you might look for something in here, for some post - event reports or such. Don;t know why. Presumably because I feel like it, namely, I have a premonition or the already mentioned presumption, it might be so. Then, it becomes much harder a task for me, the very author of this blog and post, to write something in such a way as not to indicate, implicate or any of this sort what might have any negative impact upon you whatsoever. Nevertheless, these are [not my feelings, I would not put it this way] but the latest thoughts which my mind bears; them being so intensive that I need to let them flow somewhere, find an outlet for them. May these divagations cease at a stage of just pondering, maybe they will float further. As for now, this remains unanswered as you can never tell where the words will lead you. Back to the crux, I should say this is all as for now. The only thought which came succintly packed was the following: At first, you don't like hanging out with people cos they bore you. More importantly, even, you don't like to find yourself in such contexts cos they rape you of your uniqueness and one-of-kindness, make you feel more ordinary as you individually may like to see yourself. On a second thought you perceive a different status of such encounters, namely, it's just these little moments that make you think so and you might even let talk yourself into this, however, once these moments past, you are no longer an ordinary entity but a full-fledged individual safely again. In other words, it's just them moments in which you do not expose yourself nor do you reveal yourself so greatly as you would do normally; this is because you are overwhelmed with the talking and the visuals and the thoughts of others, plus, you also kind of want to make a good impression but then it just lasts too long and you get simpley bored. I think, this is the way it works. For the independent individuals [no tautology, nor pleonasm], for egocentrics, for egoists alike, for me.